An Open Letter To My Pregnant Other Half,
We’ve been through everything. That time I broke all of my fingers (and you volunteered to write for me in class), the awkward blue eye shadow phase (thank you for putting a stop to that), and even moving away to go to college (I tried to bring you with me, because how can I do life without you?). You’ve been my two A.M. bar crawl, and my two A.M. phone call when the world is falling apart, and you’re the only one to piece it back together. So when you found out you were pregnant, of course I was so happy for you! A mini you! How could life get any better…right? But here comes the incredibly selfish part, that I am ashamed to express:
I fear that everything between us will be coming to an end. What am I supposed to do when I am breaking up with someone and I have no one else to relate to? I can’t call you, can I? I’m so afraid that I am going to wake the baby, or interrupt a diaper change, or even wake you up from your so very needed nap! I’m so nervous that our worlds, mine still centered around midterms, papers, house parties, and going out, and yours now focused on bottles, diapers, and learning how to get vomit out of satin, are going to be so different that we won’t mesh anymore. I don’t want to bother you with my now petty problems, as you focus on raising this little miracle that you’ve created. I still love you, and I’m here for you, and I promise that I am going to try to understand and accept that things are different. But please, be patient with me as I am going to forget and instantly call you to tell you about the extra-large burrito I got at Chipotle because they didn’t charge for double meat. I may not quite understand your frustration, and I may not know exactly why the baby just has to go to the bathroom every two seconds, or why he fits into his favorite outfit one day, but the next he’s magically grown ten inches. I do promise that I will listen, and try to come up with an answer for you.
Please don’t for a moment forget how incredibly proud I am of you! You didn’t have to choose to keep going on this journey, and I’m excited to see what motherhood will do for you! You’ve already changed, and it’s been incredible. You glow in the most beautiful way, and it’s clear the love you already have for your son. Just know that I’m only a phone call away in between diaper changes, and when it’s finally Friday, and you’ve had enough, this auntie will be more than happy to come babysit. I’ve got your back, Mama, and I don’t plan to go anywhere, except maybe Target because they have absolutely adorable baby socks.
