Dear Past Self,
You are born surrounded by family who love and adore you. You are the first baby born in a family who will slowly work its way up to 17 grandkids. For the first year of your life, you are the center of everyone's attention and that shows the older you get. There are times when you aren't the center of attention which bothers you as an immature teenager. But there are also times when not being the center of attention is your favorite thing in the world.
When you turn 14, you will find out the bank is taking your family home and you and your family will, unfortunately have to find a new place to life. Days go by a whole lot faster than they would have if you were not moving. Soon days turn into weeks, which turn into months and then there is only a little time window left to say goodbye to all of your childhood friends. The summer drags by living at your grandparent's house because the house that your family is moving into is not ready for occupants yet. Before you know it the summer is over, you're living in a new town where you know nobody, and guess what? You're about to start high school completely alone.
The first week is scary completely alone, but soon you'll meet a group of friends who you'll hit it off with and will be your best friends for the first year and a half of high school. That won't last long though, that big group will start to dwindle and you'll have to start to make new friends as the old ones fade into the background.
Your junior year in high school will be the best and worst year of your life. You start in the culinary program at school and become really close with people you will call your best friends for the next two years. Halfway through the year, you will meet a boy. He will make you feel more loved and special than you have ever felt before. You will fall in love with him. I'm sorry to say, but he is not in love with you. Just as quickly as he came into your life, he will rip your heart to shreds over and over until high school is over.
Senior year comes flying at you. It feels like just yesterday you were a freshman. You are in your second year of the culinary program, and you are closer than ever with the people you met the year before in the program. You're feeling on top of the world, you have good grades and a new relationship that started over the summer. But a few months into the school year the first boy you fell in love with finds his way back to you. You will try your hardest to ignore your feelings for him, but eventually, you break and the relationship you're in ends.
For the next three months, you will be happy with the original boy. He will be your whole world and nothing could make you feel differently about him. Until he falls off the wagon and becomes an entirely different person than who you fell in love with. Things will start to fall apart and you will have to make the hardest decision of your life. The relationship will end, but don't worry you will find each other again.
Soon you'll turn 18. You will get your license and college will start. Your major is creative writing and this is the environment you will meet your fiance in. You two will hit it off for a few weeks, start to date, move in together, and in a year he will propose. From there things start to go downhill. The next six months are miserable and even though you want to work it out and fix it, life is too short to stay in a relationship that you are not happy in. The time will come to make the second hardest decision of your life. You will end the relationship.
Shortly after that ends, you will find your first love again. He will be a completely different person than the first and second time around. You will immediately be able to tell that he is the person you fell in love with originally. You two are happy, and nothing else matters. You will finally feel on top of the world again. You're a junior in college, you have a family that loves you, and finally have the love of your life in your grasp.
