An Open Letter to My Mom in the First Weeks of College,
It may have killed you to see me go but I wouldn't be here without you.
Let me just start by saying that I really miss our car jams. Also let me say that once you and Dad drove away, I felt really alone all of a sudden. All I have ever known is coming home to your cooking and knowing that I had someone who would always listen to my problems and would give me the best advice, all right at my fingertips. I also knew that no one else would know that grape popsicles are the cure to every ache and sickness.
After 18 years of me living under your roof with your rules and only now do I appreciate them. In college I am given so much freedom and I am the only person who can decide what to do with it. Do I study? Do I still get up early to go to that church service even when I am exhausted? It is in those moments that I remember the person that you taught me to be. Yes momma, college is full of temptations that are pulling me in so many directions but I am strong enough to realize that some of these decisions I am making will decide a lot of how the next 4 years will go.
Just know, Mom, that of the amount of phone calls you get from me is not an indication of how much I love you. College is already becoming overwhelming and so time consuming that all I have on my brain is how much I can’t wait to finally be able to go to sleep.
I will call you, though.
I will still text you when the cute boy in my class finally talks to me. I will also still call you just to tell you about how I am actually making really good friends in college and if I see a new Broadway show coming to TPAC. Regardless of the fact that I am now living life somewhere else, I still want you to know all about it. I still need my mom to tell me how stubborn I am being when I have friendship problems and I still need my mom to remind me that my shirt is actually navy blue, not black.
Mom, if I haven’t already said it enough, I love you. You may have cried when I left for college but sometimes so do I, simply because I miss you. Just know that without your guidance I would never have been able to get through these first couple of weeks.
Also, in case you were wondering, the cute boy I told you about in my class smiled at me today.
