As a young woman, there is sometimes trouble in learning to love yourself. From the start of my teenage years, my life at home felt like it was falling apart. My parent’s divorce, being kicked out of our home, and struggling to eat a meal everyday were some of my daily worries from the age of 15.
It was obvious how much I was sinking deeper and deeper into my own darkness, no matter how much I tried to hide it. I didn’t like sharing my life with others because I knew it would result in either pity or abandonment. But you saw right through me. Since the moment I met you, I could feel the way you looked at me. The way your eyes burned deeply into mine left a mark that, though I didn’t know then, would remain in my soul forever.
From the first time your skin grazed against mine I knew that touch would be something I’d yearn for. For that reason, it didn’t take long for you to get me to open up to you. Within a few weeks of us crossing paths, I was yours. I was telling you my life story without holding anything back. Without judgment, and without the feeling of being a burden, you helped me see the good in the days I thought there was none.
You saw all of me -- my anger, which was seen by many, but also my tears, which were seen by none. I felt comfortable, safe, and at home when I was with you. And for this, I say thank you. I owe so much of where I am today to you. I really believe I would be a different person if it wasn’t for our souls finding each other at the time they did.
Thank you for teaching me how to love another person wholly and unconditionally as much as I do you. Thank you for teaching me how to love myself even more.Through you I saw my beauty, worth, and dreams when I thought there was none there. I learned that I didn’t have to rely on anything or anyone but myself in order to get me where I wanted to be.
Even though I don’t think we were meant to meet and become one, your purpose in my life was to enlighten me in order to be the best version of myself. We never ended up being together, but you will always be a part of me. Though you are rarely in my life anymore, your unforeseen appearances reassure me of the foundation you laid upon me those years ago.
Until we meet again.
