I miss you everyday, more than you know.
Seeing you smile while eating breakfast downstairs whenever I had just woke up was never failing instant joy; always making my mornings better. Surprising you by picking you up from school and hearing about what you did that day, made me proud. Making sure that you said your prayers every night was a ritual that my heart aches for again. I miss fighting with you for who would be in charge of the remote, and the look you gave me whenever I wanted to sit in the comfy chair. I miss your sass, your sarcasm, and your goofy faces.
You are too young to understand this yet, but you have been put through and have overcome so many trials and tribulations already in your life time. It is truly a blessing to be your big sister and watch you grow. I think about you everyday. I think about your accomplishments, what you did to make everyone in the family laugh, how you might have been playing with the dogs or how I could be there on the days you feel like you can't do anything right.
Life here is weird without you. There isn't anyone to wake me up in the morning and ask if I will make a big breakfast for them. There isn't anyone to ask me to download a game or play video games for hours. There isn't anyone to make lunches for, or play soccer and baseball outside with. There isn't anyone to argue with, bicker with, or even be sarcastic with quite like you. Nothing that I have here can replace you.
I give you full permission whenever I get home to argue with me, wrestle with me, make me take you everywhere that mom or dad wouldn't, share all of the things I missed out on while I'm there, and sass me (just a little).
You are too young to understand this too, but you and our sister give me the strength to get through the day when I REALLY don't want to get up for class. You two only want what is best for me, and I want to make you both proud. I think back to you waking me up in the morning, the countless talks in the car that I took for granted at the time, and the way your dance moves could always cheer me up.
Your dorky laugh, goofy faces and bear hugs bring me joy and anticipation for when I can see you again.
I miss you, and I love you. Keep being a dork, little bro.
Love,
Your older sister
