In college, I think we all have a moment where we look back at high school and think of so many things that we wish we had said or done. For me, it isn't something that I wish I had said to someone else but to myself. When I look back, I tend to cringe from all the memories of the rude girls or awkward moments. I wish I could go back and tell myself not to listen to them or let anything they said get to me. Here I am three years later with the same exact insecurities, but while I have insecure moments I've grown so much and wish that high school me had already known what I have grown to learn.
I don't want to look back at high school and have bitter feelings about my choices and the person that I was. That is why I am writing this letter to the person I was back in high school, and hopefully this helps resolve those bad feelings I have towards her.
Dear High School Me,
It's been a long time since I've seen you last, but I hope you're not hiding too far away. High school is tough for you, and you have every right to be hiding. You're stressed and contemplating if college is really what you want because the rejection from your top school is almost crippling. I wish that the person I am now could tell you that rejection isn't okay, but it is okay that it happens. Don't put yourself on a pedestal because when you fall, the crash will hurt even more. But I also hope you know that because of rejection you found the most amazing home, Bridgewater State.
High School Me, there is nothing I want more than for you to just be yourself. Your classmates' opinions don't matter when you graduate, so don't worry about what they think of you. Don't let your insecurities run your life, and don't be afraid to love yourself despite those insecurities. I'm sorry that I'm embarrassed by you and that I don't miss you, but college has made me fun and happy. I have amazing friends now who love me despite my quirky humor and mindless moments, and I've really found a future for myself and where I belong.
I just want you to know that you will be happy with the person I am now. I still may be insecure and introverted at times but I do love myself despite any rude things girls in high school said about me. I may not miss you but I do want to thank you because you made mistakes and I learned from those.
I hope that wherever you are in this scattered brain of mine you like watching who I've become and who I'm becoming because I couldn't have gotten here without a little help from you.
Sincerely,
The New Me
