Wow, the fact that I am even writing this letter is a lot for me to deal with; it's full of a lot of emotions. Sadness, certainly, because I was so sure the last guy in my life was the one for me, and it absolutely broke my heart when he wasn't. However, it also fills me with excitement -- over our first date, meeting your parents, introducing you to my friends, all of the weirdness that surrounds a new relationship. While I am very excited, I want to start this letter off with a list of reasons why I'm sorry because believe me, after the newness wears off, you're going to need it. However, I'm going to end it with all the hopes that I have for us. I want our relationship to be amazing and I'm praying daily that it is.

I'm sorry for my sassy attitude. I know that it can be hard to handle at times.

I'm sorry that you're having to pick up all the pieces that someone else let broken.

I'm sorry that I have an emotional wall up towards you.

I'm sorry that it's hard for me to express how I feel about you, because I've shut my feelings off for so long.

I'm sorry that I never dress up or wear makeup. I know you'd like to see me not look like a hobo every once in a while.

I'm sorry that I complain about everything -- the weather, my lunch, my hair -- literally everything.

I'm sorry that I'm always so busy. I know that it feels like I don't have time for you.

I'm sorry for all the mood swings you'll endure.

I'm sorry for constantly talking about my job and the world of education because I know you don't care and it gets very boring.

I'm sorry that I'm reluctant to introduce you to my friends and family.

I'm sorry that I always doubt your feelings for me.

I'm sorry that every time I pick a restaurant it's Grouchos.

I'm sorry that I steal your fries when I say I'm not hungry.

I hope that we laugh more than we cry.

I hope we go on adventures together that don't always go as planned.

I hope you love Buster as much as I do. (And that you don't think I'm a werido for being so obsessed with him.)

I hope you always laugh at my lame jokes.

I hope you love Jesus with your entire heart.

I hope that you don't get tired about hearing me ramble about my job or the field of education.

I hope you embrace my family and all their craziness.

I hope you forgive me for all the times that I shut you out.

I hope your mom likes me enough to show me embarrassing pictures of you.

I hope you can remind me to slow down and take it east every once in a while.

I hope you don't get mad at me for being so uptight.

I hope you bring out my carefree side.

I hope I love you to the best of my ability.

All my love (no matter where you may be),

Karly