To the very first person that will become my entire world, and then some, my future daughter. Although I will not meet you for another 10+ years, I want you to know that this is a day I have been dreading, even now before it has occurred.
The first thing I want to tell you is that I hope you truly know how beautiful you are and to never look in the mirror and think otherwise. No matter what flaw or imperfection you may pick to over-analyze, always know that these imperfections are beautiful because they are a part of you. I know right now you are feeling so low and you will question yourself. You are going to blame his leaving at first on these flaws. Please know that whatever flaw you may see is not the reason he broke up with you. I want you to love these things about yourself the most because they are what make you mine. And although he may have left, it is not because you weren’t pretty enough or good enough, I can promise you that the imperfections you see were probably what he loved the most about you.
You may wonder why I have been dreading this day and you may think that I shouldn’t be bothered by it because it has nothing to do with me. You’re the one hurting, not me; I know, I was there, too and I thought the same thing. I have been dreading this day because I know how much you are hurting. You just lost the first person that you completely opened yourself up to. Not like you do with your friends, this person really knows you. They know all of your secrets, hopes, and dreams. Now that’s gone and you struggle to understand why. All you have left is the memories and that’s what stings the most. I want you to understand that I know everything you’re feeling and it hurts me so much that you have to feel this way. I know that pain. It is a pain that has no words to describe and no emotion to compare to. I know it doesn’t make the pain any less to know that I understand what you’re feeling, but I do hope that it will help you to know that you are not alone.
Do not let this pain make you hard. You can either let it guide you, or let it destroy the person you are. Yes, it’s going to hurt, but don’t base every relationship off the fear of feeling that pain again. If you live in fear of being hurt, you will miss out on so much. That’s how I want you to look at this. It is only a difficult lesson that will help you grow into a stronger person. Take this as a blessing and use it. Don’t let fear make you cold. Despite this, I never want you to rely on a man for happiness and security. I want you to find happiness within yourself. When you’re finally ready to open up again, find someone who will not only grow with you but help you grow as your own person. Please don’t be so caught up in the idea of being in a relationship, you are the best and deserve only the best. Your heart is too big to be invested in someone who can not give you back what you are putting in.
Although, as of right now, you do not exist, and will not for a very long time, I want you to know that you are so incredible and I am already so sure of that without even knowing you yet. You do not need anyone in your life that makes you feel any less incredible as you are. You will be so loved and hope that love will be enough.
