Dear Old Friend,
No, our friendship is not one that has lasted long, yet when we clicked, it felt like I had never known anyone as well as you. I don't even remember when we became friends, but it's hard to think of the last two years without you because you've honestly changed me in more ways than I think you realize. I don't think you understand how you've changed the way I see the world, how I interact with people, and even how I think of myself.
Coming to college, one of my biggest fears was not keeping in contact with you because I couldn't imagine a world where I didn't see you in my day-to-day life. If you had asked me a year ago what I predicted our friendship would be like today, it would be far from the answer I have now. Me a year ago would be devasted, distraught and completely burdened by the fall of our friendship. Yet, me today doesn't think twice about it.
I know that over the past year I've tried to keep in contact with you and you haven't reciprocated it. I cringe thinking about how the spark and energy that made our conversations so vibrant has disappeared. Worst of all, I find myself becoming more comfortable without you in my life and not caring about whether I hear from you or not.
I hate that. I hate that we've both given up and that there is nothing left to fight for. I hate that I'll look at a picture or think of a memory and a smile won't light up my face. But maybe that's how it's supposed to be, and maybe this is where we are supposed to draw the line on our friendship.
However, I can't help but try and hold on but it seems like you've already let go. Looking back at it, it feels like you let go when we parted ways and I've been reaching for an imaginary string that 's been gone for ages. That's the worst part, knowing our friendship was gone before I got to say goodbye to it.
I'm sure that sounds dumb, but I'm a firm believer that everyone deserves the right to closure. How are we suppose to move on if we can't let go? I'm also a firm believer that people come into our lives for a reason. I know that maybe we fulfilled whatever purpose our friendship was supposed to serve, and moving on is for the better because there are other people waiting for us out there. I just wish you missed us as much as I do.
I don't know how to say goodbye to you because it just seems empty at this point. I will say thank you though, we had a heck of a run. I hope that one day we can find people we won't lose hope in. I hope that person is someone you always want to call and text, where every conversation is better than the next, and you couldn't think of going a day without seeing them. Because at one point, that's what our friendship was like for me. So, go ahead and find your person, and I'll go find mine.
Always,
Me
