Words can’t explain how much I fell in love with you. I recently broke things off with you and it’s been one of the toughest things I’ve had to do. I even cried over it, and I don’t cry too easily, even being a girl. We couldn’t agree on what we wanted for the future. You wanted me to move across the country to be with you, I told you I couldn’t leave everything to be with you. We both got upset. I’ve got my family and friends here, I’ve also got the beginning of a career going here. A career that I’ve always wanted, even before I started my first official job when I moved across the country for volunteering and met you. You’ve taught me a lot of things being my first love. You’ve taught that it’s okay to be vulnerable. You wrote me letters, encouraging me to write out my thoughts and feelings. You told me that my hair looks good the way it is, I didn’t always have to straighten it. We told each other we loved each other and meant it.

You started pushing certain issues and never let them go. You started pushing marriage and children. Of course, I’ve thought about marriage with you, I just don’t know if I’m ready for children. I kept saying maybe or someday, you didn’t like that too much. That’s all I honestly have to offer right now. I may want something more in the future but I’m just not 100% sure. I don’t want to make a timeline keeping your hopes up, then decide something different last minute. You said it was unfair of me to ask you to wait for me while I spent more time being independent. I’m sorry I can’t offer you everything you want right away. I might regret ending things with you in the future, I have my moments where I do right now. Maybe we will get back together in the future, maybe it will be meant to be as they say if we can ever work things out. You also taught me one more important thing, to stand up for myself. And for that I will be forever thankful, no matter what happens. I’m sorry my love wasn’t enough for you for now.