You and I had something most people don't get to have in a lifetime of loves. We got to be in love passionately; even if it was only for a short amount of time. We were the couple that loved unconditionally, we loved deeply. I looked at you like the moon looked at the stars. I saw the light of my future in your eyes. I was ready to face my future with you, which is saying a lot because the thought of facing a future in general terrified me. One without you scared me the most. I suppose you could say I'm facing my fears now. My future no longer includes you, and while it is scary for me to face that, I am ready.

For the last two years, I had the thought of a perfect future in my mind. We were supposed to be together 20 years from now, talking about 40 more, even if we didn’t live that long. We were supposed to have kids, as you promised to only fall in love with one other girl in your life, our daughter. That went by the wayside way faster than I ever expected. We both had the fear of not being together, and it scared us both, so I still don’t understand to this day why you just up and left. But, I should thank you for doing that. As stupid as it sounds, you leaving me may have been the best thing to ever happen to me. Of course, at the time, I wasn't okay, nor was I happy with you leaving me, and I still am not happy with it. But I am growing from it. I realized that puppy love was not love. I absolutely adored the way we loved, and I still miss it, but it was childish. We should have known that being together for 60 years wasn't realistic. But I was so in love with you, I didn't care that you and I were doomed from the start. You leaving shattered my heart, it broke me into a thousand tiny pieces, and I was sick, physically ill, and not mentally stable. I worried everyone I knew because I was so hurt I wanted to end my life because without you in it, it was dark and black and I was dependent on you and you abandoned me, how could you?

You could because you are young. I am 2 years older than you, and I always thought you were more mature than me, but in all reality, I realized I was more mature and stronger than you will ever be. You became a coward, and a childish immature human being, not wanting to handle leaving me like an adult, and I blamed myself, thinking I was in the wrong for being too childish. But I was the one standing there trying to apologize for something I didn't do. I tried to apologize for something that you did because I wanted to work through it. You wanted to be alone, and you wanted to get me in trouble for loving you. In the moment you left, I realized you never did love me like I thought. You may have at one point, but you didn't anymore. I was under the impression that if you fought so hard to love me openly, you'd fight to keep it that way. I was so wrong. We were never meant to be, but I prayed nightly we could be. You taught me how to love unconditionally, even if it isn't reciprocated. But you also taught me to find someone better than you.

So, I guess, thank you for breaking my heart. Thank you for ruining my outlook on love, only for a while. Thank you for causing me to break because in that moment I found my light on my own. I realized I didn't need you to be happy. You were a lesson well learned and my walls are no longer weak. I have higher standards and I am still on the lookout for the one person who will treat me right. I will find them.

Thank you.