Someone once said that "a failed relationship is a stepping stone to a perfect ending." I can't say how true that is now looking back.
Time and time again I thought I was crazy for the guys I was seeing. I could see my life going in a million different directions with them in my future. With every new guy it was like a novel with a "you choose the ending". Or a different flavor of ice cream for the week. But with every relationship I learned new things about myself and about people in general. I won't say that I wasn't to blame in a lot of the situations, but I definitely wasn't always to blame. If I were to write a letter to send to all my ex's it would go like this...
To All My Failed Relationships,
I would just like to say thank you. I know that might be odd, since depending on which one is reading this varies our experiences together. But whoever you may be, thank you. Thank you for the long nights we would sneak out and look out at the stars as children. Thank you for the times we would nervously text with the use of way too many emojis. Thank you for saying you loved me in the battle against "who says it first". Thank you for being my first encounter with an asshole and a broken heart.
I would also like to say sorry. For the million petty arguments I probably fought too hard in. For stringing you on when I was already over you because I didn't have the balls to be the one to call it off. And worst of all, for ever making you feel like you were less than or worthless.
If it wasn't for every single one of you, I wouldn't be where I am today. I wouldn't have learned how to love and how to allow someone to love me. I wouldn't have experienced what every child/ young adult does when they have a crush and their heart pitter patters. I also wouldn't have learned how to persevered through heartache.
I wouldn't have found my way to the love of my life without the lessons I have learned from all the time spent failing. Finding love takes time and patience. If you haven't found it yet I wish you the best of luck. I want you to know I appreciated our time together. That wherever we go or end up, that you were a part of my story that I will never forget or take for granted.
With Love,
Alex
