Hi baby,

I know you were sick, but you were my best little furry friend and I never wanted to see you leave. You were there every morning to wake me up, you were there to greet me at the door when I got home from school, and you were there to lay with me in bed at night when I slept.

I remember when we first got you. I was only 9 years old. I was so excited to finally have my first dog, but never would I have guessed that you would mean so much to me. I remember getting to know you and loving you right away, never thinking that one day you wouldnt be here anymore. It was 7 years of tossing you pizza crust, bringing home chew toys, and playing fetch with you in the backyard. The 7 years spent with you were short, way too short, but they were the best years of my life.

I remember when mom and dad told me you were sick. They told me that you had cancer, and the tumors had spread throughout your entire body. You only had a few days left with us before we had to put you down, and say goodbye. That was by far the hardest day of my life. Having to walk out of the vets office knowing i would never see you again nearly killed me, but I know it is what was best for you.

Sometimes I forget that you are gone, mostly because it is still so hard to believe… I always thought that we would have infinite time together. I assumed you were going to live longer, since you should have gotten double of the time you had. Im sorry. Im sorry for kicking you out of my room when I was grumpy or in a bad mood. I am sorry for all of the times I called you annoying, and for the times I got mad at you and yelled at you. I would truly do anything to have those moments back. I love you.

I want you to know a few things. Whenever I go home, I still expect to see your shining face and wagging tail as I walk through the door. I think about you so many times throughout the day, and still look at the same pictures and videos that we have together over and over again. Whenever I am having a bad day, I always wish you were here to comfort me while I cry. Life is not the same without you, and I am convinced it never will be. Sometimes I wish there was something I could have said or done to have you still be here… I would give anything to have you back for just one day. Some people do not understand how much of a bond you grow with your pet over the years. I didnt even know it was possible to miss someone this much. I still cry, I still miss you. They say over time this should get easier, but its been 6 months and the pain is still there.

Anyway wherever you are, I hope you are happy. I am trying my hardest to deal with life without you. It isnt easy, but I will do my best to be strong for you. I am eternally grateful to have a dog like you, because you are the best one I will ever have. You werent just my dog, you were my best friend.

I love you baby, and I will never forget you.

Love, Alyssa.