As I sit here depressed, listening to One Direction songs on shuffle, I contemplate how my life will continue without Zayn Malik. His departure from the band is the worst thing to happen since Justin Bieber dyed his hair. There are no words strong enough to express my devastation, I feel an ache throughout my whole body. How could this be? Please, Zayn, say it ain't so.

Sadly enough, it is the truth. Zayn reported that he is leaving One Direction for good after five years. And it's official. Check out One Direction's Wikipedia page, he's literally listed as a past member.

I'm going to be honest, it was hard to fight the tears in class when I heard the news. How is anyone supposed to go on in world like this? Zayn is a God sent from heaven, sweeping girls off their feet left and right. And man, did he sweep me up. He's really got that “One Thing." I feel like I'm going through a bad breakup or something.

It is acceptable to weep, cry, and scream. We've lost someone very near and dear to our hearts, and t's an absolute travesty. Never again will we see his beautiful face on TV or listen to his angelic voice through the computer. Never again will we see his beloved hair swoop or drool over his impeccable facial hair.

Never again will he release another album with the One Direction boys. I think that's saddest of them all. Now when I hear their songs, all I can think about is how Zayn is gone and never coming back.

However through think and thin, I'm still a die-hard One Direction fan, that'll never change. Louis will always make me laugh, Liam will always be the voice of reason, Niall will always be cute and Harry will always make me swoon, but now Zayn will always and forever have a place in my heart.

However, I can't help but be a little bitter right now. C'mon Zayn! At least wait until after the tour! I've been dying for months, just waiting until August to see you in person. How can I enjoy the show when you're not there? If I had known you'd drop out of the band, I might have reconsidered asking for One Direction tickets as my only Chanukah present.

But forget all of that. This is about Zayn Malik, the gorgeous creature sent from above. I want to thank him for gracing us with his godly presence for five unforgettable years. Thanks for telling us how the “Night Changes" and for reminding people to “Live While We're Young." And lastly, thank you for teaching us the “Little Things" are “What Make You Beautiful."