What does it mean to not be the emotional friend? You aren't sure how to react when you see people crying. You just feel awkward and resort to patting them on the head or hugging them and only saying, "It will be okay." It can be rough. You feel guilty that you aren't doin enough, that you should do more, but you don't know what else to do. You get annoyed when people cry over things you think are insignificant. You are thought of as uncaring. You care but how do you show it.

I am that person. I do not handle people crying well and more often than not I run away and try to find someone else to come handle the situation because I am useless. It isn't that I don't understand why they are upset, it is just that I don't know how to make them feel better and to me that feels like failure. I love my friends. Each and every one of them; but each and every one of them knows that if they come to me upset, the most I can do is listen and then say what I think which is often not what they wanted to hear.

My advice and comforting words are not always what my upset friends want to hear. I do not always take their sides and tell them how they were right and the other was wrong, but rather how they both handled things badly and could've done better. I crack jokes. I do not handle serious situations well and my last resort is to try and make them laugh where I feel like they aren't as upset. News flash: just because they are laughing does not mean everything is okay.

I am not emotionless because I do not care. I just do not always understand how to express them. I have feelings, I am not heartless. I just do not understand why people think crying is the best way to feel better. In my experience it doesn't fix anything. It just gives me a headache.

I love my emotional friends. I believe they love me. I wouldn't change anything about them and I hope they feel the same about me. I wish I could do more to comfort them in their tears but I do listen and try to help the only way I know how to.