In just 6 short months I have to leave college. I have to leave the place that I have grown to call my home and all the people that made it that way. I have to leave a place I love so much and thrust myself into real life and I am not ready.

For years I have had this plan set out for my life. I have known since I started my first day of freshman year that my time in college was limited. I have of course always known that I would only be here for four years, but now that it is suddenly almost over I feel like I am being ripped away too soon. I feel like I am not done making memories here. Freshman year I couldn't imagine that four years would fly by so quickly, but now that it is all about to be over, I am just not ready to say goodbye to this part of my life quite yet.

I only have six months left; half a year to make lasting memories with the people I now call my best friends, when just a few years ago, I didn't know who they were. Half a year to do all the things that you just "have to do" if you went to college in this town. And half a year to fill my brain with all the lessons I will need to be able to graduate and start my own life.

I guess the best word to describe my constant feelings for the next half a year is: bittersweet.

I am so sad about leaving my friends, leaving my apartment, leaving this beautiful school. I am so sad that the life that my friends and I have created will no longer be what my life is like.

But, I am so happy to be done working for my degree and actually get the rewards I've been working towards. I am so happy to be able to have the opportunity to put the lessons I have learned towards good use at a job I will hopefully love.

One day I will look back at the time I had in college with warm memories and happiness. I will be happy that I worked so hard because one day it will bring me to the places I have always wanted to go.

But right now, I am just not ready.