"You and everyone you know are going to be dead soon. And in the short amount of time between here and there, you have a limited amount of fucks to give. Very few, in fact. And if you go around giving a fuck about everything and everyone without conscious or choice--well, then you're going to get fucked."
A quote from one of my favorite books, "The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck" by Mark Manson.
Have you ever been through those subconscious cycles where you test the depth of your own worth, for absolutely no reason? There should be a reason because you keep doing it. Identify the reason.
Question why you have the burning desire to externalize your feelings about yourself onto another person just to reach a satisfaction you think you want.
This is the game. You don't have to play. It's not life or death. Let go of the attachment that you are trying to prove so badly. If it makes you feel any better, nobody gives a fuck anyway.
Personally, that gives me great relief that I'm the only one putting myself through my own loop hole when I could be using that same energy to benefit myself or my relationships. Time is being wasted.
Stop rationalizing. Notice the barrier that appears as the devils advocate once you let it in completely. You always have the choice to delusion your own ideas. But don't. Why would you?
Our brains like to complicate the least bit of thoughts and actions. Freaking flow through it! You'll thank yourself in the end.
You create this shit.
People meet their enemy with your enemy, this is why fights break out. We use people to understand ourselves better. It's important to us to have those that make us feel connected.
I realize, people don't care. People will always be curious, but they genuinely don't give a fuck. Nobody cares unless you give them reasons to, or if it affects their life. Because of this, it's easy to be alone.
Which is completely fine. Because if nobody gives a fuck, then it gives you more room to openly do what you want without the thought of anybody else around you.
The amount of times we stop ourselves from our own desires simply because it would effect someone else--why though?
Do it anyway. Break the spell. Nine times out of ten, people will end up supporting you or become fascinated because you actually had the balls to do something they wouldn't even think of doing.
Fuck that.
But does that effect you? No, because you are doing what you please and you're actually enjoying it. Nothing else matters.
You get to choose how to live, how to feel, and what you want your next journey to consist of. Those people you think care, are restricting you from finding your own answers. Especially those that you respect. They aren't the ones living your every day life.
You are.
And for the people that do wholeheartedly care about you, the ones that you wouldn't be on this planet without, will support you and will be on board even when you fuck up.
Take the opportunity to be cared for when you need it the most.
You don't owe anyone anything, and nobody owes you anything. It's survival of the fittest. Adopt a process that works best for you.
When you choose what to give a fuck about, life becomes so much more inviting.
