A year ago I thought I had everything figured out, and yet here I am today knowing nothing.

A year ago I had a different major, a different mindset, and a different daydream of what my future would entail. I thought I’d figured out my happily ever after, made all the friends I needed, and chosen the major I’d never want to drop. And here I stand corrected.

So here I am - majoring in something new, meeting people I can’t imagine having lived without, and writing a whole new story to find my new happily ever after. People like to choose dates like New Years and their Birthday to start a new and make a change, but what happens when the changes come to you instead? What happens when things change when you’re not ready?

You pout, you mope, and you probably eat way too much ice cream. And after that? You get up, get going, and start again, no matter what date it falls on. In the midst of the chaos we think things will never be okay, we won’t figure out our lives before they catch up with us, hearts won’t mend as easily as we’d hope, and the Universe likes to shift without a single warning – how rude? We're never given more than we can handle, contrary to belief, we are given just enough.

A year later and here I stand not having everything figured out anymore, but somehow knowing more. I know when I fall, it hurts, but when I stand and begin again I’ll grow more than I ever could have. I know tomorrow seems like such a long shot, until it’s here and I’ve survived another 24 hours whether it was one of the worst or best days of my life. I know that once I stop focusing on what I have to give up I can see what I truly have to gain. But more importantly, I know I’ve still got a lot to learn.

"The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new." - Socrates