"When I discover who I am, I'll be free." - Ralph Ellison
The hardest thing in life, I believe, is discovering who you are. If I had to describe what it is really like to find your true self, I would use the definition of mystery. You may define mystery as something that is difficult or impossible to understand or explain, but that isn't the proper definition to what I am discussing here. I believe that everything you go through in this life helps build character. Life is a mystery because no one knows what and why things happen. Each trial and tribulation that you may have to come across and go through help unpack who you truly are. Through this, you will find your self-worth.
Mad, upset, irritable, frustrated, misunderstood, sad, and hurt have been a part of my emotions throughout my lifetime. Of course, as the day goes by, I find happiness, hope, encouragement, and excitement through friends and family, but at times, it is like I cannot catch a break. Lately, my family has had to deal with unplanned illness and uncontrollable behaviors while balancing school, work, doctors appointments, therapy sessions, and regular family activities that "normal" families do. It may seem like nothing at all, but it can bring a lot of unwanted stress. Life is good at throwing you curve balls, but you have to make the best out of each situation. These past few weeks I have taken the time to reflect on my current situation as a player in this game of life. I have come to realize that life is far from fair but, it has been the life that God blessed us with and everyone has to keep thriving forward, no matter what. At times, you may not want to push along because you figure what is the point, but then you have to realize that life has so much to offer and you get to learn from the experiences that life offers, and realize it only makes you grow as a person. As people, we have choices, and each choice we make will determine our future. I have learned in these past weeks that I can either cry and be sad or I can be determined to make the best out of the situation. Believe that each day the stresses of life will become less and less. I am learning that within the mystery of life I am gaining strength. Strength that can be gained through sadness, frustration, anger and/or any other negative emotion. How is that you may ask? Well you take the negative emotion and you find the good in whatever you may be going through and once you do that, you gain more strength than you had before the negative event happened. I know that I am not the only one who goes through hardships, but I do believe there is a lesson in every curve ball, don't you?
