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An open letter to my anxiety and depression

I don't need you. I deserve better!

Alyson Kelly
Nov 26, 2018
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An open letter to my anxiety and depression

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Dear anxiety and depression,

You held me back for so long, I didn't think I knew how to live without you.

5 years ago, I had no hope. I had no desire to live. I was 14. I didn't want to live anymore. I had my whole life ahead of me and I thought the world would be better without me.

4 and a half years ago, I decided I needed help. I got the help I needed. The day I decided that I took the power away from you. You fight to get that power back EVERY DAY. You will NEVER get that power back. You have NO control over me now.

3 months ago, I decided I was going to stop caring what others thought about me. 3 months, I have tried every day. My day used to depend on if you wanted to show your face. If you wanted to make me go insane in my own mind because I thought that I needed approval from everyone I came across.

The day I woke up and realized I need to take control of my life was the day my life changed forever. That I didn't need you anymore. I didn't need a lot of the people that I tried and worked to keep in my life didn't support me. That didn't see me going far. That they were as toxic in Munoz life as you were.

I have my days still, don't get me wrong you still try to show your face. You try to make me doubt my decisions. You try to bring me down. I sometimes let you win. I let you get the best of me and suck the happiness out of my day. My life is rough on those days but my friends are here for those days. They share the joy they have and that outshines you. You are not my end goal.

I WANT TO BE HAPPY. I WANT TO BE ME. YOU DO NOT CONTROL ME ANYMORE. I HAVE TAKEN CONTROL.

I know you will always be there, but so will my family and friends.

You may get control of my life again in the future, but I took it back once, I can do it again.

Sincerely,

A girl who chose to stay.

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