My Love/Hate Relationship With Food

My Love/Hate Relationship With Food

Struggling to balance my love for food with my love for my body.

Here’s the thing: I love food. I have a real relationship with food. We understand each other. Food comforts me like no one else can; food fills me up with genuine happiness. I love talking about food, thinking about food, and looking at food online. When I think about my favorite foods I get this warm and fuzzy feeling inside. You could say I am a foodie and that food and eating makes up a big part of my life and who I am.

Here’s the problem: I do not have the type of metabolism or body type to support such a love for food. In fact, my love for food is dangerous to my health. For as long as I can remember I have struggled with my weight and, as you can imagine, my self esteem. I have never been very pleased with what I see when I look in the mirror, I have always wanted to look different—better. Dealing with these issue is never easy and takes a toll on your mental health as well. I have always looked at girls who were smaller than me with envy, why couldn’t I look like that? Of course, these thoughts and feelings are wildly unproductive, but hard to stop once they begin.

Year after year I would say, “This is the year I finally lose the weight and get healthy!” And year after year I stayed the same and failed to change my lifestyle. Finally when I got to college I took control and I made the changes; I stopped eating so much junk, starting eating in moderation, and made sure to exercise on a regular basis. I am proud to say I lost the weight, and in a healthy manner. I never skipped meals or did anything to compromise my health to get the results I so desired.

So here’s the problem now: I am still trying to lose a few more pounds but it’s getting harder and harder to shed more weight. And I know I shouldn’t pay attention to a number on the scale, but I am so determined to reach a certain goal that I just can’t stop here. I workout very often, I am actually in the best shape of my life, so what’s holding me back? My dearest love, food. Food has become something I don’t enjoy anymore. I don’t enjoy that I know this thing I love is what is holding me back and hindering my ability to reach my goals, I also don’t enjoy that I feel this way and that I am always so concerned about how much I’m eating and how many calories I’m putting into my body.

My relationship with food has become a love/hate one. On the one hand all I want to do is stuff my face with ice cream, French fries, and chicken nuggets. While on the other, I know that although those foods taste so good going down, they won’t make you feel very good in the long run. Food brings me great joy, but I know now that the best things in life are taken in moderation. I will probably never stop loving food the way that I do, but I will make sure to put the health of my body first.

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Sensory Deprivation Tanks can Take you Towards Better Health

Sensory Deprivation Tanks

How is it even remotely possible that depriving us out of our god given senses makes us healthier? Well, the answer is, by providing our brain with a short break from the bombardment of external stimuli while being all natural and all, we provide or entire system a break which unleashes an unimaginable amount of brain processing power that causes our brain to ‘repair’ or a better word in this situation would be ‘recalibrate’ our entire biological system.

When a person is placed in a sensory deprivation tank, isolation tank, REST tank or whatever other name they may refer to it as, what happens is the elements of sight, sound, smell, temperature and even gravity is removed, and the enormous brain processing power that is required to contend with these factors are set free to perform other much needed functions that our brain had placed on hold, for a very long time. The first thing that happens is that our brain goes into a deep relaxation mode which means that our mind quietens down significantly and our brain goes about exploring unbalanced chemical states and works on re-balancing them towards an optimal state.

The truth is that these sensory deprivation tanks have been around for a long time, for more than a century in fact, but resistance to change and the uncertainty of new things caused the acceptance of what these isolation tanks could do was slow due to a variety of reasons including the fact that the technological state during the time it was invented in the 60s were not capable of measuring brain frequencies as they are now and the fact that isolation tanks actually have a lot to do with brain waves which is the primary reason why these tanks are so effective have only come to light recently.

Initially they were written of as something that was only suited for geeks and have no medical value, but they have been proven wrong slowly over the years as reports on the effectiveness of these pods towards curing ailments such as insomnia, lack of concentration, fatigue and depression kept pouring in. From other factions reports on how effective they have been in speeding up muscle injuries, reducing gout symptoms and relieving people of chronic pain has expanded the use of these isolation pods to a variety of medical fields and floatation therapy has been since included as an added treatment measure in support of other treatments due to their role in making existing treatment for a multitude of common ailments much more effective.

As more people have come forward about how floatation therapy has made them more effective at work due to better clarty, higher focus and a higher capacity at problem solving not to mention reports from athletes that have sworn that they are able to perform better, floatation therapy has moved into the mainstream medical sphere. All fingers pointing towards the possibility of floatation therapy being nothing more than a ‘placebo element’ has since been nullified based on actual clinical trials involving hundreds of subjects.

Researchers have proven without doubt that subjects who are placed in isolation tanks causes a significant reduction in the activity of the amygdala in their brain which renders the subjects’ fight or flight response to be diminished as well and when this transpires the brain perceives that there is basically a ‘zero thereat level’ of any form and allows the brain to actually go into hibernation mode which triggers a deep relaxed response which in turn causes a significant level of brain processing power to refocus and heal the inner biological functions and reset our entire system into an optimised state.

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I'm Not Vegan, And I Am Tired Of Being Shamed For My Decision

Veganism isn't right for everyone, so find the diet that works best for you.

Raise your hand if you have watched the documentary "What the Health." Yes, the Netflix documentary which seems to be scaring the public into going Vegan. Truthfully, I have not seen the film, partially because I know veganism is not the correct diet for me, and because I have no intention of ever going vegan (sorry my furry friends). In fact, I opt to call myself an "ethical omnivore". This means I eat both vegetables and meat, but the meat I consume is locally sourced and free range.

I want to make it clear that I am not pushing one diet over another with this article or saying that "What the Health" makes unjust claims. I am, however, saying that this article and film should inspire you to search for the diet that is right for you and your individual needs.

When I was nine years old, my parents and I took a road trip throughout the west while listening to "The Omnivores Dilemma" by Michael Pollan. Pollan explains that omnivores face the problem of deciding what to eat for their next meal. Instead of relying on their own preferences and desires, we focus on expert opinion, advertising, and diet books. Pollan called this “the anxiety of eating.” He challenges his readers to consider the ramifications of the food which we are consuming, like our dependency on corn or what latest diet trends do to our health.

Being health conscious is not a new trend for me. Since I have food allergies, I’ve been aware that clean eating is imperative for healthy living my whole life. This mindset, however, seems to have peaked the public’s general interest within the past few years, causing a rise in menu markings for “Gluten-free”, “Dairy Free”, “Vegan”, “Vegetarian”, or allergy-safe food in restaurants. I am not complaining, I am however promoting it is important to know what food works best for your body and what it needs to function.

My mom did not consume red meat for 25 years. However, when she turned 45, her body needed the stronger animal protein. After five years, she no longer needed it and stopped eating it. I need to consume meat, whether it be chicken, turkey, or fish or my body feels fatigued and lethargic. You need to listen to what your body tells you; listen to the way it reacts after consuming certain foods.

Although I love indulging in a vegan dessert delicacy, they are often made with nuts, garbanzo beans, or avocado. Within a matter of minutes, I look like I am six months pregnant since my body cannot easily digest legumes. With this in mind, I understand that a vegan diet, which consists mostly of legumes, is not right for my body.

I have asked some of my vegan friends what sparked their dietary and lifestyle changes. Answers range anywhere from, “I wanted to be healthier” to “I am trying to lower my carbon footprint” and even “I do not feel good when I consume meat.” It is important to listen to your body. You may feel a burning desire to adopt a vegan lifestyle to save our furry friends, but your body may not agree with that decision, causing drastic weight gain. Or, veganism could be the best thing for you.

When changing your diet, it is important to consult a medical practitioner to ensure you are going about the process in the right way and that it is the optimal change for you. No, watching a documentary or reading one website is not enough. If you are preparing to make a significant lifestyle change, you need to do it correctly. Having grown up in a household that promotes healthy eating and listening to your inner voice, I understand not to jump on the newest food trend. You need to listen to your own body; to avoid being led astray.

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