Siblings. You love to hate them. But at the end of the day, you love them to the ends of the earth. They are, after all, and always will be, a part of you. There are those meaningless fights, the aggressive ones, and moments of kindness that sum up your relationship. No matter what happens, you will always love them. Like many others who can relate to a situation like this, I do as well. (Otherwise, I wouldn't be writing this). My older brother, has always been my idol. Sure, he has made mistakes along the way, but that's just part of being human. We would always have fights about who would get the TV remote, or arguments about who's turn it was to wash the dishes, typical fights between a brother and a sister. I spent an entire semester living with him, and let me tell you, he isn't exactly the easiest person to live with. A filthy room, reluctance to do the dishes, being super critical about everything. And arguing with him? That was a nightmare in and on itself. Then there were moments when he was the sweet, loving brother I always knew him to be; bringing me dinner and coffee before a final, getting me soup for when I was sick, little things like that. I didn't know how much I would miss him, and his little idiosyncrasies until he left. I didn't know it would hurt this much. I felt all of these things and so much more.
1.) Constantly being worried about their safety, because you didn't show it enough when they were around
2.) Tearing up, or getting depressed just thinking about their absence
3.) Replaying all the stupid fights, quarrels, and frequent banter you would exchange
4.) That first letter from them invokes a feeling of euphoria
5.) Eating their favorite food becomes almost impossible to do
6.) Looking through old pictures brings out the happy tears
7.) There's a perpetual dull ache in the heart
8.) Overthinking the situation with 'what ifs' doesn't help
9.) It's like a part of your heart has gone on vacation
10.) But knowing that they're happy, makes it all worth it
Yeah, I know. All this is uber sentimental and melodramatic. But it's true. My brother may only be in training in Oklahoma, but him not being here with me has created a sudden emptiness in my heart. It's like that age-old saying. "You never know what you have until it's not there anymore." Cherish the ones you love. Even the most annoying, aggravating ones. Love them with everything you have.
