My best friend is the person I spend almost every single day with, the person whose shoulders I've cried on more times than I can count, and the person who makes me laugh when my world is falling apart.
He's the person that's been my go-to for the last three years, the person who knows me better than most, and sometimes even better than I know myself.
He also happens to be my ex.
Most people are weirded out over exes being friends, especially as close as we are. Most people think if exes are still friends, there was never any real feelings involved or that there's something more going on. But they're wrong.
Three years ago, I was dating my best friend and it was one of the realest things I've ever felt in my life. I laughed and smiled more that first month than I ever had in my life. He made me believe that I was somebody worth loving. We spent every single day together and went through life together; we were a tag team. And although our relationship didn't last, I wouldn't change a thing, because it lead us to where we are today.
We had said from the beginning of our relationship that, no matter what happened, our friendship came first and we'd stay friends no matter what. But it wasn't easy at all, and we thought of ending our friendship more times than I could count, but we never could. We had to be in each other's lives; it was as simple and complicated as that.
Everyone thought we were crazy for fighting so hard for a friendship, but I knew he was meant to be in my life in some way always. Because from the first time we hung out, he's been my very best friend. He's seen the good, the bad and the ugly in me, yet still chooses to stay. And that's not something I ever want to give up.
We still have unconditional love for each other, it's just in the form of a friendship now. We still send emojis when we text, just now it's middle finger emojis instead of kissy faces. We still spend an insane amount of time together; it's just that now instead of going on dates we just hang out. But none of that affects us. What's important is that he's still the person who shows me I'm worth loving, we are still a tag team, we still go through life together day in and day out.
So to me it doesn't matter that he's my ex because he was my best friend first. and continues to be my best friend every single day.
Over the years we've gone through so much in life together. and apart. but we've managed to be there for each other throughout it all. So yes. Technically, he is my ex, but I'll always refer to him as my ride or die, tag team partner, best friend.
