The thing that every teenager dreams of: moving out on their own. You don't realize how emotional and hard it really is until you go to do it. There is so much more to think of than just paying rent. Personally, the first major panic attack I had was about towels. Who freaks out about towels? But I've never had to buy towels or worry about it. I always just told my mom what I needed and she went and got it. It is just so much to process that I can't even explain how much stress and panic I have felt in the past three days. Yes, it has only been three days since I signed a lease and I have experienced more emotions than I ever had before.

First, I went into excitement and joy. I was so excited. Living on my own means freedom. No rules unless I set them for myself. No one to answer to except my roommates. Then, I went into being scared. What if I got scared and wanted to sleep with my mom? That has happened in years, but I now wouldn't have the option. That's what freaked me out the most. I didn't have the option of walking to my moms room to talk to her. I didn't have the option of walking into my brother or sister's room to see what they were doing if I was lonely. I was going to be alone. I thought that I had wanted this for years, but the more I think about it, the more scared I gotPl.

Again, you don't realize that you have to buy your own shampoo, toothpaste, toilet paper, trash bags, and even trash cans. I have been stressing out trying to make sure we have absolutely everything we need to get by. You don't realize that this is actually a really big step in your life. You don't realize how much you rely on your parents and family until you go out on your own. It is scary and exciting and just a cluster of emotions. While writing this article, I have realized about ten more things that I need to pack or bring with me.

You just think that you're ready to move out and be in control of your life, and then you go to do it and you just don't realize the emotions that come with it and all the stress. Most people say, "If you weren't ready, then why did you do it?" The answer is simply that you can never be fully ready for this. You can be 18 and dive right in or play it safe and wait till your 30. You can't prepare yourself to be ready to be on your own.