When I watch a TV show I get so enveloped in the characters that I feel their emotions for them, I become so emerged into in the fictional world that I feel like a part of it.
Anyone who has asked me to describe a TV show can stand by this, I'll go on a thirty-minute rant about a single character plot and the complexity of it or how the plot line everyone says is unrealistic could actually happen.
Some people think I'm crazy and some people think I'm passionate, while others just call it delusional. I like to think of it as hopeful.
Sitting in the car with my best friend the other day and my favorite song from my favorite scene of my favorite show comes on.
It's a scene that inspires hope and love, while at the same time adding loss and sadness. It's a scene that in captures such contradictory emotions that you don't know what to feel but you know that you're feeling something.
As I'm on my rant I start to see her eyes widen and look at the clock- yes I had gone on about it for the last 12 minutes, and yes I knew she thought I was crazy.
I told her these are the scenes that I want, the emotions that need to be felt. Everyone wants to feel something and that's the something I wanna feel.
She just laughed and when I asked why, and her reply was simple, "Dude, stuff like that only happens in movies."
This cut deep for the 3.2 seconds I let it until I realized she was wrong.
They may be called movie moments but that didn't mean that they were just meant for the movies. I'd had some movie moments in my past relationships, I just needed to find them.
So that night I made my own movie moment, I was the stereotypical girl.
I gathered my ice cream and all things from exes past. Reflecting on everything I had learned from them and reliving the moments that meant the most and this is when I came to my conclusion.
I didn't have my movie moments because I wasn't supposed to yet.
Movie moments aren't supposed to be the ones you intentionally create, but the ones that sneak up on you.
The ones life throws at you and you were sooo not ready for. The ones that make you lay in bed at night replaying them over and over again. Just as you did after watching your favorite movie. Because your life is your movie.
Sure that last kiss in the rain I had when saying my final goodbye could have been a movie moment or the time I got in that huge fight and he grabbed me and told me he loved me no matter what.
Those moments meant a lot but they weren't my movie moments, my movie moments are out there and worth waiting for.
I'll sit back and enjoy the show as I make my own movie, I'll follow my passions and dreams.
I'll make my goals realities and watch everything I worked for come to life and suddenly one day my movie moments will come. And when they do I'll know, I won't have to go looking for them or make them happen myself.
A movie moment may be created on screen but the ones in real life, those come when you least expect it. But when they come, those feelings you feel when the couple finally gets together at the end of the movie, those feelings will feel like nothing.
You'll feel like the girl who gets the boy, the hero who conquered the giant but most of all you'll feel like you finally got what you've been waiting for.
Movie moments are real, very real and they are something worth waiting for.
