"Get it together
That's what I said to me
I put on the pressure
You could do better
Be who you supposed to be"
Maybe, this is what you have been saying to yourself. Maybe, you feel like you have not spent enough time in the library or that you have procrastinated too much. Maybe you keep finding yourself disappointed in you because you haven't gone to class enough. I do not know what you are feeling, but I can assure you that these thoughts have went through my mind more often than not. I have always struggled with finding my worth in my GPA. Although grades and school are important, I have to remind myself that I am not defined by the grade I get or the amount of hours I spend studying.
"But that's when you came in
Right when I needed you
Said all of the things that I was believing
Not one of them were true"
I am defined by the way that God sees me. God does not look at me and see that I did not do well on a test or that I did a terrible job on a paper. God looks at me with love and sees His daughter. He sees His beloved. I am theses things. Even when I do not believe them, this is how God always thinks of me. God never looks at me and says "Jourdyn, you could have got an 'A' in that class, but you got a 'B'. I am so disappointed. You are never going to be who I want you to be." He never says or thinks that about us. If he did God would always be disappointed in me. Instead he says "Jourdyn, I love you. That is okay. Don't worry about your GPA, I have bigger plans for you."
This is a lesson I learned when I did not do as well as I hoped in a class I tried so hard in, last block. I practically pulled all nighters for three days and still did not get the 'A' I was working toward. I actually got my first 'C' in college. I was so disappointed. That grade alone will effect my GPA almost two points. All I could think about was, if I would be on the Deans List this semester. Yes, I probably will, but not with the GPA I wanted to have. Even though I am still slightly disappointed in myself God will never be. He will never let me go.
With the end of the semester approaching, and for Montana Western Students, the end of our last block of the semester, remember that you are not the grade you get in a class or on a test.