Nothing frustrates me more than the look on people's faces when I tell them I'm not going to college. I can't seem to escape the questions about college that people continue to ask me. When meeting someone new, the first question asked, "so, where are you going to school?" or when I gather around with my family for the holidays, who are all expecting to hear about what I'm going to be doing for the rest of my life. Well, sorry to burst your bubble fam, but I don't know what I want to be doing the rest of my life for certain.
Is it really so wrong that I don't know what I want to do with my life? Should a look of disgust appear on people's faces every time I tell them I'm not going to college? If so, then that's okay. It's okay because at the end of my life, when time has run out, it's only going to be me who has been living my life, and I'm either going to be satisfied or unhappy. Not anyone else. Just me.
It's important to pay attention to the paths you come across in your life. There is going to be a significant amount of them, and it is up to you to decide which path will get you closer to your ultimate destination. If I wanted to go to college I would go. But I don't want to go to college and it shouldn't make me any less of a person for choosing not to go. For choosing the right path for myself, that will get me to where I want to be; wherever or whatever that is.
I have learned that it's okay to be unsure of yourself sometimes. It's okay to not want to go to college. It's okay to not have a plan. No matter what anyone else says or what society thinks, it is not wrong to not have it all figured out. Because having everything figured out is certainly not easy.
College is not for everyone. We are all different individuals. Each and every single person are the only ones who know what makes them walk on air and what makes them languish altogether. No one should be discredited for not following the "rules" on what makes you a successful human being in society. Anyone can be successful going, or not going to college.
Not knowing what I want to do for the rest of my life has really stressed me out in ways I can't even explain. I have torn myself apart because of it. Being one of those people to realize college just isn't for them, is honestly rough. It is rough in more ways than one, but because of not falling into the "routine" of things that society has set up, I do get a great deal of shit thrown my way. I might not have anything at all figured out, or I might have very little figured out, but either way I have come to the conclusion that a college degree does not and will not define the person I am nor the person I want to become.
