Today I cried because I found myself longing so deeply for a relationship. To show someone what I have to offer, and give my time to. To be able to laugh with someone, and have our own inside jokes. To be able to share everything with that person, and know I’m safe. But then I thought about why I really want that, and why I’m really sad. And it’s because I feel lost.
Because I often feel scared and sad most mornings when I wake up. I go outside, put my headphones hoping to distract my mind from the millions of happy faces I see pass me by.
I think sometimes we want someone to feel complete, and to not feel so lonely. To feel like we're in a pair, a team.
But you know that isn't fully fair to me, or for you because truthfully we all know our identities should never be found in something. A pair will never fit if one piece is broken.
And maybe you're not lonely, but you want something.
Someone to go to the movies with, someone to text in the morning,
someone to bring home to family on holidays, and share experiences with.
We desire a relationship, and there truly is nothing wrong with that, because we were ultimately designed for relationship. Since we were born we began a relationship with our parents, and eventually share in relationship with other relatives and friends.
Though we may desire a romantic relationship and may have been created for relationship, it doesn't mean we're guaranteed to be in one, yet that is.
Which is why I find myself constantly surrounding myself with friends, because our friends get it, we all do. Life has its ups and downs, and we need each other to get through it all.
Our friends can go to the movies with us or go home for the holidays with us.
They're there to listen, to understand, and make memories with us.
But like every most relationship, they're not perfect.
We constantly let each other down, hurt each other's feelings, and disappoint one another.
Its unfortunate, but its life.
We also cannot fully depend on our friends, and give them all our emotions, because they're human too, and are going through their own difficulties.
Jesus says in the Bible, "I will never leave you, nor forsake you."
There are most definitely times I feel "disappointed," by God. Feeling as though He isn't fair, He isn't giving me what I want and appears to be giving me the exact opposite of what I want.
But He never disappoints, because He IS faithful and true.
Relationships are a beautiful rollercoaster of feelings, experiences, and communication. We love to love them, and though they're tough, they are great.
Our friends and significant others play a major role in our lives,
life is too hard and too short to do alone.
The comfort is knowing we are never, ever alone.
You may not have a boyfriend or girlfriend, but you have friends and family who loved you.
And even if they disappoint you at times, even if you don't have a good group of friends or a stable family, God promises to never leave us or forsake us.
He is ALWAYS there.
Being single isn't being lonely.
Romantic relationships are great, and you may not have one, but you'll always have relationships.
