"And you know that if I had just one wish, it'd be that you didn't have to miss this... You should be here." -Cole Swindell
They say time heals all wounds. Over the years I have found that to be far from true. Time softens the blow, the emotions, the tears and the hurt. But time won't bring you back, and time won't let me forget you. Although I would never want to.
Rainy days seem to be the worst. My mood turns dark and I long for you to be here with me. To this day I still can't believe you're gone. It just doesn't seem fair that God took someone away from me for no reason at all. You had so much living to do, and, in the blink of an eye and with the doctor's words, you were gone. Without a sound, you slipped away from the world. From me.
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one that misses you. Or that I'm the only one who even acknowledges that you're gone. I still cry and scream and curse the Big Man above. Some days I feel like life isn't as fun as it could be with you gone. I know if you were here you would make my life complete again. You see, when you left, you took a huge chunk of my heart with you. A piece that I'll never get back. But I like it that way. It gives me comfort knowing you are keeping it safe up in heaven.
I feel you close to me everywhere I go and in everything I do. I feel you close when something exciting happens and I wish you were here with me. I feel you close when I'm at my lowest, and I wish I had you here to hold you close again. I am so blessed to have the best and cutest little guardian angel there is.
As much as I want you to be here with me and for you to come back, I know that's not how it works. So I will keep you in my heart always, and always keep you close. Please know no one could ever take your place, but I would never want them to. I can't wait to be reunited with you again in Heaven one day, and for us to make up on way too much lost time. Until we meet again, my precious angel.
