Just because I'm out of my teens doesn't mean that I magically have my life figured out.
I have changed my career path four times. I have looked at a number of different colleges. I swore off a university for 17 years. I got certified in a trade only to decide a different major six months later. And no, I still don't have my life figured out.
The thing is, as 20-somethings and millennials of this world, about 90 percent of us don't know what we want to do or what we're currently doing.
We'll go to college just to change majors, we'll put off college for a little while, or we won't even go to college at all. Some of us will go to trade schools, some will go on to grad schools, and some will find a job we love with just a high school level education.
With that being said, I'm okay with my life being a mess and I'm okay with making it up as I go because that's how I'll learn what I'm truly called to do. I won't apologize for not knowing what job I want out of college and I won't be sorry that I took a gap year to get certified in something that I most likely will never do again in my life. For me, that gap year after college taught me more than a classroom ever could have.
My career path might change and I'm okay with that.
My friend groups might change and I'm okay with that, too. Relationships, schooling, living situations... All of that has a great possibility of being switched around and that makes life a very messy thing. But, to me, if you don't have a mess, you'll never learn how to clean. If you don't have somewhat of a mess in your life, you'll never learn what needs to be taken out and where you need to improve.
For some people, sticking to a set plan can cause more trouble than it's worth.
For me, sticking to a set plan only made me narrow my vision and tune out things that could have caused me to excel in ways that I would have never dreamed of. That doesn't mean that I'm not currently trying to get my life ironed out because I am. But, I won't stress about it because life experiences make for the best learning experiences.
So no, I'm not sorry, I'm 20, my life is a mess, and I'm making it up as I go.
And that's the only way I'm going to learn things in this crazy life.
