If you asked me the last time I cried, I would say it was very recent—yesterday, actually. It's finally hitting me that I am going to have to get used to some distance from the person I get the chance to see every day. Don't get me wrong, phone calls and FaceTiming are a fortunate bonus for communicating in this day and age, but it's so different when you're not physically with your favorite person in the whole world. When you can't feel them or their presence life seems...incomplete. You constantly feel as though you are missing a part of you.
I'm going to miss him in all the worst ways. I'm going to miss his big hands around mine. I'm going to miss the way he makes me laugh so hard I can't breathe. I'm going to miss our spontaneous adventures. I'm going to miss him playing with my hair after a long day. I will miss not having someone to share my life with.
I have never felt so emotionally close to someone who makes saying goodbye so hard. I know this is a blessing in disguise, but I can't help feeling sad knowing right now that he will be miles away from me. I know I have to be strong, and I will try my hardest to. I'm not perfect, and I will miss you, and the feeling will consume me. I guess that's not always such a bad thing.
The thing is, this is all just temporary, but right now it's very hard to see that. I think that's okay, though. I'm not ready, but honestly, when will I ever be ready to leave the person I can't get enough of?
We may be in distance but never in heart.
It's going to be hard, but if it's meant to be I know it will be worth it. Miles don't mean anything when he means everything.




















