I honestly did not know that you would stay. I have had people coming in and out of my life on a constant and I would not have been surprised if it was the same with you. I held a wall up every time we saw each other, every time you looked at me and you noticed but it did not push you away. It just made you curious.
I intrigued you, you wanted to know why I am the way that I am and who changed me. As of right now, I still have part of my wall up, but every day that I am with you, it gets chipped away.
I want you to know that life is not rainbows and gumdrops and even though you look at me now like I am the most perfect girl in the world, I am anything but perfect. There will be days when you are frustrated with me, there will be days that we do not talk. It will suck, I know, but being attached at the hip is not the best thing either.
My life was pretty good without you and it can still stand alone. You are falling for a girl who can stand on her own two feet, who can buy her own Taco Bell and can drive your car without crashing it. I do not know what your last girlfriend did and frankly, I do not care.
Obviously something went wrong or you would not be with me right now, sitting on my bed. I will learn from her mistakes as you will learn from my exes’ mistakes. That is a factor as to what will make us great.
When I look into your eyes, I can see so much wonder, so much interest and so much life and I am excited to take this path with you and learn so much more. I warned you about how I will constantly ask questions. I am a journalist, what did you expect? You talk about your future all the time and sometimes you mention me in it and that brings butterflies to me but it can also be a bit scary.
I want to thank you for giving us such hope, even when sometimes its not realistic. I am the negative one out of the two of us and it is refreshing to hear your plans of life. I want to thank you for all the hugs you have given me, all the thigh rubs and words of encouragement even when you knew I messed up.
You are my friend. Always and forever and when you read this letter, I hope you know how much more you mean to me. You told me you’d never let me go, well now is the time to prove it.