So I'm bck at it again y'all and bigger and better than ever. Week two was... interesting. So as of last time you know of the current relationship status.
Single as a Pringle y'all.
I felt that everyone around me had someone to take interest in or at least someone taking interest in them. Of course, I know many people say "oh hey don't worry about it, take this time to get to know yourself" but let's be real y'all...
After knowing yourself for a long uneventful set of years straight it is fair to say
I DON'T WANT TO KNOW MY SELF ANY DAMN MORE
I have had enough. I've always known myself. I know myself like the back of my hand. Let someone else know me for God's sake. And encounters with attractive guys weren't going my way either.My friends and I had the tendency to point out every possible God sculptured man on campus and one day I ran into one. I was just trying to get food and there he was being all beautiful and what not. I refused to let him see me although clearly, he did. I had made eye contact and it was over from there. He had smiled with his big beautiful smile and I'm pretty sure I looked like a hot mess. I walked away devastated. I ended up scurrying away like Spongebob into a long walk of shame.
What was I doing wrong that everyone else seemed to do right? Especially with Valentine's Day around the corner, I was not here for it.
So here you had my big ole pimple and a loveless life. I needed to do some reconstruction on myself.
I sat and listen to music and finally put my senses together.
Everything is not what it seems. Just because you see all these cutesy relationships on social media and in public does not mean they are genuine. Do not be fooled, honey. Every person is different. Take this time of singleness as a time that God is saving the most amazing human being for you. The less drama the better. There is no need for you to be stressed out by someone else's drama and attitude. So take this with a grain of salt.
Next acne is normal! It is so normal. Half of the people on social media don't even look like what they actually look like, to be honest. If we picked at every little flaw in our body we would always be in a funk. Embrace your acne. Just because you have a pimple doesn't make any less worthy than another person. Your worth should be based on your character and personality. We have got to stop comparing ourselves to other people. If we were intended to all alike then we would. I think we have to start taking in consideration that there is literally someone meant for everybody. You may have not just run across that person yet or the universe is trying to keep you away from the bums in life.
So after all of this, I came to the conclusion that I should just live life. Live the best possible life ever. Have FUN. No one has to be perfect all the time. It's so unrealistic and underrated.And though I may spend another Valentine's Day alone or have to hug my own self every now and then, I'm going to embrace it. Because well Damn it
I LOVE ME AND THE PERSON I"M BECOMING AND YOU GOTTA LOVE YOURSELF THE MOST
Speak fire y'all. However as Week Two closed a opportunity has come up. My dear sweet friends have created a scenario for me to shoot my shot and I plan on Steph Currying the hell out of it like my momma didn't bless me with home training.
Now of course with all this will come complete embarrassment but time can only tell. On that note until Week Three of being Loveless in College-attle. And ya girl is off to the Eastern vs Western Conference of love.
