Sweetheart,
I can never thank you enough for coming into my life. You will never truly understand how incredibly important you are to me. You seemed to come into my life at just the right moment; it was becoming this god-awful Lifetime movie where the girl always ended up heartbroken, and it was on loop. I was going through a really rough time and was beginning to lose who I was. I tried to date, and met a lot of crappy guys that used me and dumped me as soon as they got bored. I was an absolute wreck.
I can remember the day we met and our very first date. From that point, you have been nothing but understanding and patient. You’ve been every bit as loving and caring as all those Disney princes that I’ve been told don’t exist. You never put me down, never hurt me and never left me alone. You make me so incredibly happy. And from a girl that constantly falls apart, I don't get that a lot. You're like my own little medicine. You give me hope. I have never in my life had anyone look at me the way you do. I just want to thank you for reminding me who I am again.
As time went on, I came to realize that you were absolutely perfect. I kept thinking, "why me?" How could you be so attracted to all the things I hate about myself, adore my quirky laugh, my crooked smile, every little flaw. My heart swells every time I catch you staring at me, every “you’re beautiful," and every time you reach for my hand. I actually watched you fall in love with me.
And oh God, how I fell in love with you. I’m addicted to your laugh, your smile and the way you roll your eyes at me. I'm in love with the way you love me. The way your kisses build up. The way your fingertips feel on my skin. Every run-you-over hug after a long time being apart. The way you look at me, really look at me. You actually think I'm beautiful. I'm in love with being so close to you. Making you happy. I'm in love with the idea that you could be my forever. I hope you know you're the first thing on my mind in the morning, the last lingering thought before I fall asleep and the lead character in all my dreams in between. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.
And wow am I afraid of losing you...
You taught me to love again, showed me what real love should be like. Love is being myself around you. It’s the smile I can't hold back between the kisses. It’s the making the kitchen a mess trying to follow a Pinterest recipe. It’s sleeping 15 hours in one day because you worked late so I just sleep during the day with you. It’s the hour long phone call for no particular reason because I missed your voice. It’s you actually listening to the boring work stories I gab on about. It’s the fact that you look at me so lovingly, even when I'm self-conscious about myself.
Thank you for becoming my hope, my love and my happiness. The sound of your heartbeat has become the very thing anchoring me down. You make my life brighter; you make me brighter. Maybe I have always fallen apart because I was missing the person that could keep me together.
