I never understood how some girls put with up being so mistreated by a boy. I have always been the one who told them they deserve better and can find a man who will treat them right, as long as they hold their standards high.

I never understood why a girl would wait around in anxiousness for a boy to text or call her back. I have always said, don’t let him control you like that, you deserve better than that.

I never understood how some girls could lose sleep over silence of a boy. I have always said, move on because there is something better in store for you, I promise.

As much as it sucks, I understand. When you meet someone you see a future with, it’s hard not to be mistreated by him. It’s hard to not be anxious and it’s hard to not lose sleep.

I have never understood these things… Until I met you.

Things were so great in the beginning. You loved me and I loved you. You wanted to marry me and I wanted to marry you. We saw each other often and communicated well. But something changed.

You went away. Physically and emotionally, you were so distant. You said you would call and you didn’t. You said you would visit me and you didn’t. You said that you loved me… but you didn’t.

I asked for reassurance but you had none to give. I got mad and yelled but you had no words to give. I told you I loved you still but I could tell you had no love left to give.

We went from every love song on the radio and sweet notes for each other to wake up to, to not even a text good night. We went from spending every weekend together, to a month apart. We went from so much love to so much nothing.

I understand these things… now that I met you.

I would have given you my world… and I told you that. I would go wherever you were… and I told you that. I would have loved you forever… and I told you that.

Now, I don’t hear from you at all and I don’t think I can wait any longer. I won’t know if it’s because of another girl or if it’s because I did something wrong or if it’s because you fell out of love.

Because you stopped loving me without any sign, I will let go myself. I have become too tired to wait for your uncertainty. I have lost too much sleep over my ignored calls. I have become someone completely different while trying to love you.

I want to love you but I can’t wait much longer for you to make up your mind. If you love me, let me know. If you don’t, let me go.

If you let me go, make sure that is what you want because I will not come back.

and if you love me, please let me know.