Today was not the greatest for me, but I learned something very special. I got into an argument with my fiancée over something stupid and said some things I should not have said. I got hung up on (several times) and eventually she turned off her phone. It drove me crazy knowing how upset she was.
Now, I know I'm not the greatest guy, but...
I know when I've done wrong. Love is hard. I thought I lost her; the last thing I said to her before I was hung up on was not "I love you." It was something that rhymed more with "duck poo." I honestly regret it, but I know that we all say things we do not mean when we get angry. It is just up to us to make things right. I felt like duck poo. I know what I said was wrong, and I wanted to do everything I could to fix it. Both of us are too stubborn to give up on what we decide. But before I move on, I have another story of crazed love lost.
About a year ago I was really close to some other girl (this was before I met my current fiancée), and we had grown up together. Her name was Kailee, and I was going to marry her. Last thing I told her was that I could not wait to see her. about a week later, with not a word from her, my sister called me into her room. It was around midnight. She and Kailee were the best of friends; they were excited to become sisters (in law). My sister informed me that Kailee was found to have committed suicide. We were both devastated.
A couple of months later, I was used and abused by my best friend, and even led to believe that she loved and cared for me. I eventually became numb. I thought I loved her at one point, but I did not. I couldn't have after what she did to me. The recovery process from both of these incidents were very difficult, and I am still recovering.
Now it's been almost a year since all of that happened, and now I'm in this situation. It took her a while to finally answer me. The good news is we are still together, and we "kissed and made up," as they say. The bad news? I haven't figured that out yet.
The point is...
Love is hard, and love is easy to lose, if you aren't careful. I almost lost my fiancée over some petty argument. I almost lost myself in sorrow and pain. Love everyone, but be careful who you place your greatest love in. Be sure you can trust them with your heart, because if you trust them with it, they could break it at any time they wanted. Does this mean they will? Of course not. For all I know, you could know the best people in the world. Either way, love conquers all.
