The thought of college actually aways really scared me, the thought of packing up all of your stuff and moving away to practically live in a room with a bunch of strangers. Sure, college has its glorious parts like the parties and being away from parents nagging on you and, of course, it's a fresh start, but for some of us, fresh starts are hard to comprehend.
I miss my everyday routine. Waking up earlier and going to classes for a longer time sounds like a ridiculous request, but high school was fun at times. Sure it's much nicer now to pick when you go to class and have breaks in between classes to nap, but there's nothing like knowing every single person's name in your class and maybe knowing a little bit about them too. I miss seeing familiar faces everywhere I look. Now, it's a shock if you even see someone from a class you have every other day walking on campus.
I miss coming home to things waiting for me like my dog with his tail wagging or a warm meal on the table that might even be a little cold by the time I eat it. In college, all you'll get waiting for you is the loads and loads of homework piling up or you could get the loads of dirty clothes you left on the floor because you don't even have the time to pick them up.
I miss the comfort of my own home. NOTHING is as homey as the house that you grew up in, and you won't realize this enough until you're away from it. I miss how comfortable my bed really is, no twin size, mattress pad or twin XL comforter will ever be comparable to sleep in at that level of comfort. I miss the feeling of showering without flip flops and on a time limit. No hard, unsoftened water shower in college will ever make you feel as clean as the one in your own home.
I miss my clique. Some of us have been blessed to have found an amazing friend group in high school. College creates such a distance, besides location, between you and your friends. You may be so used to talking on the daily and sharing every detail with your close friends, you may have even made a promise to talk every Tuesday at 2 p.m.; however, life gets crazy and that every week thing turns into every other week and eventually we find ourselves getting lost, not even knowing what was said last to them.
I miss the little things that I don't get to do in college. I miss being able to drive and being so familiar in my town that I lose focus on the actual task of driving and find myself in my own little world. I miss being able to go to any destination I want when I want, like the mall or to get a specific food. I miss being able to spend my time how I want it and not feeling stuck.
I miss the familiarity of everything. Days go by and months go by and soon years will go by. College is a large part of our lives; it changes us. It changes our routines, our comfort zones and just about every little aspect of our lives will soon change. It's so easy to get caught up in these things and let our minds be stuck on what life was like before this whole universe existed. But soon in four or a few more years our lives will be completely flipped again and we have to trust that all of those things before this life will either go back to how they were or they will be even better.
At the end of the day, college gives you so much, even when it's hard to see at times, college is a pretty weird/cool thing.