When you're fifteen, you think that life will only get better once you graduate high school, go to college, get married, have a couple babies and have a career in a field which you like being in.
What a wonderful fairy-tale that is.
No one tells you how hard it is to find somebody to love who loves you back. No one tells you how hard it is to pick the school to go to because some of your friends will stay home or in-state, some of your friends will go out of state, and some of your friends will pack up and move halfway across the country, and take a gap year.
But, the one thing nobody tells you is how lost you can feel in your twenties.
I'm twenty-two, and I've never felt as lost as I am right now, writing this article at the campus Starbucks, thinking about the Media Law Case Briefs I have to finish reading and decipher when I get home and want to cry about it. I went to community college before a university to get my Associates degree, and I changed my major once while being there.
I know that sports and writing is my passion, and last semester I was pretty set with it. Now, I'm not sure with what I want to do.
I love animals, but I hate science, so being a Vet Tech is out of the question. I want to be a broadcaster, but working with things like Adobe Premier is like watching my dad trying to figure out his iPhone. I feel like I'm so lost on what I want to do with the rest of my life, and I'm almost 23. Shouldn't I be done with this? Shouldn't I know what I want to exactly do forever?
The only things I know I want is my big old farmhouse, with a wrap-around porch, a yellow Jeep, more dogs, and to marry my best friend, whom I'm currently with. I know I want to travel across Europe, taking off and not having a time I need to come back. I know I want a great career that has something to do with sports and writing, but maybe I'm not going for what I thought I exactly wanted.
No one tells you how lost you can feel in your twenties, but it's okay. It's okay to feel lost because let's face it: we aren't alone. There are people who didn't figure out their careers until their thirties and forties.
At least you know you aren't alone, because, look at me.
