In 6 days, it will have been 1 year and 2 months since I've lost my best friend. That's one Christmas, one thanksgiving, one of each holiday. The holidays weren't the worst of it though...it was the first day of senior year, senior orientation, college acceptance, senior prom, all the moments when I just needed you to be physically there to talk to. Also the small events as well such as my birthday...you were always the first one to come over and give me something, or your birthday.... It's defiantly the big events also..like high school graduation, or when I graduated from Augusta Tech for my CNA course, or when I got accepted into college.. I wanted to run to you and tell you about it, and college orientation...my sister had her best friend through all of that...why couldn't I. There are so many times when I wish I could just call you or text you or simply have you come over but I no longer can have that and it sucks so bad. Having to hear everyone talk about their best friends and not being about to have any new memories with your best friend is one of the hardest things in the world. No scratch that, seeing everyone go off to college with their best friend or seeing everyone see off their best friends while I'm stuck here looking to the stars for mine.There was so many things that we talked about together I couldn't talk to about anyone else and i think the only reason I am writing this is because tomorrow I move into college and I just don't know how I am going to get through it without you. I literally feel like I'm leaving you behind be you are here and I'm leaving and the worst part is I can't even stop by and say goodbye.

I guess the whole point about this article is to say that of all things people take for granted, best friends are on the very top of the list and we don't realize it until we no longer have someone there to fill that blank. If there was anything I could take back it would be that last hour before she died. Try not to argue with your friends or family because the next minute isn't promised. The day my best friend passed away was the day we had our first and last argument and I wish with everything in me that we never had that argument..If I could say anything to her today it would be a great deal of things but this is just a few things...

1: I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry for everything. I'm sorry for not seeing all the signs leading up to up to the accident. I'm sorry for the argument, for saying yes to you coming over because Lord knows if I would've told you no because I had a headache like I had planned on telling you then you would still be here. I'm sorry for blaming myself for your death. I'm sorry for everything

2: Thank you

Thank you for constantly being there with me. Thank you for everything you ever did for me. Thank you for watching over me now and for watching out for me then. Thank you for being my bestfriend.

3: I love you and I will NEVER forget you.

I love you so much. I loved you then and I love you now. I know that you are with me in my heart but still it's not the same. I will never forget you...EVER. You were my best friend, my sister by choice, the one that God gave me as a best friend because he knew our parents couldn't handle us a sisters. I love and miss you so much babygirl.

Now what I want to tell everyone who reads this: Please don't take for granted the things that seem so simple..you never know when they can get taken away for good.