To the boy that I gave my everything to, and he just broke me down,

I will never understand why you would hurt me the way you did, and how you still are. You made me think that being hidden from everyone, not going on dates and just "hanging out" instead of doing things as a couple was normal. So normal, that I actually defended you and I didn't get upset about it anymore like I use to.

All the late nights that I stayed up alone clinging to the only thing that I had around me (usually my stuffed panda) and crying all night because you ditched me to go play basketball or hangout with your friends (when we already had plans to do something that day) made me realize that you either need to change the way you look at our relationship, or I just need to get out of it. The sad thing is, you are the good guy. When I say that, I mean that you are one of the nicest and funniest guys that I know. But, you hurt me without even realizing it. You haven't told any of your friends, or you parents, that we are together, and you constantly hide me. When I say you hide me, I mean you never text me when you are with your friends, and you never let me come over.

I fell in love with you, even when I was trying to protect myself from heartache like this from happening to me. I tried to protect myself from all the pain that you cause me and I just couldn't seem to do it this time, no matter how hard I tried. All the 'I'm sorrys" that you give me from ditching me all the time just hurt me too much this last time. I can't even think about how many times you told me that you would be done playing basketball and hangout with me, then got home at 10 p.m., 11 p.m. and sometimes even midnight. Granted, I know I shouldn't just wait around for you to hangout with me, but it is so hard to just ignore the fact that you promised me, even though I should know that you are just going to break them. But, I have to know that I cannot control everything, and I can't make you stop breaking your promises. So, on that note, I am not going to wait around for you to just hurt me anymore.

I am tired of giving second chances to you, even though I know that you don't deserve it. I am going to start doing things for myself, even if it means that I am not going to be at your beck and call. It stresses me out so bad and makes me sick that you would throw someone like me away. Someone that would do everything and everything for you. I love you, but it's time for you to mature before you break my heart over and over again.

I can't stress enough how important it is to love yourself. People walk in and out of your life, but sometimes you have to push them out.