Throughout most of my life, I've never really had a lot of best guy friends. I had a few here or there, but never really any that didn't go away, or that I ended up having a crush on. Recently, I had a best guy friend and immediately we hit things off. We did everything together, we met at work and hung out after work every time we were scheduled together. We went to graduation parties and he wrote me when he went into the Army. It was like I finally found someone who I could talk to about anything and he would always make me feel better about any situation. He knew when and how to make me laugh. We became really close and I finally felt happy and anyone could see that.

I had spent so much time and effort in the friendship we had and invested my whole heart into being the best friend I could be for him, especially when he was going through basic training. I knew he was trying to push through and be the best he could, so I just wanted him to know he had someone cheering him on.

I knew he was cheering me on. He would help me study for my dental exams and would always tell me how he believed in me, even when I didn't believe in myself. I knew he would listen to what I had to say (even when I vented to him about the stupid things going on in my life). Overall, I knew I could trust him with my life and I hoped he would trust me with his.

I'm not going to go into detail as to why we aren't friends anymore, but I will tell you how I felt. I was heartbroken; I was more heart broken than I was when my ex-boyfriend and I broke up. It was just like losing a family member or a girl best friend. I remember asking God why he would put such a great person in my life and then have him just walk away. I was upset and was sick to my stomach. Instead of thanking God for him, I was mad he let him walk out. I was lost and felt like my whole world was turning upside down. It was like that part of my life where I had invested so much time and energy was ripped out and thrown on the ground.

It's been nine, almost 10 months since all of this happened, I had healed my broken heart and almost erased it from my memory and just recently everything seemed to pop back up again. That's why I decided to write this article.

We aren't friends on Facebook anymore and I don't think he will see this, but if he does, I hope he understands I'm happy for him, no matter what has happened, or how things ended. If he is happy, then I am happy and will constantly pray for him to have a great life.