When listening to the song for the first time, it sounded as if she had read my mind. I remember being in a toxic relationship, but not realizing it until afterwards. I remember believing he thought he knew what was best for me. I remember seeing some signs that I should have left, but I ignored them. These lyrics hit so close to home.
He always played the victim. He always acted as if he was the one hurting and like I hurt him. He tore me down, no doubt. He made me think I deserved what he put me through. He tore me down. He made me feel like I was never enough and that I needed to change myself.
I always went back and looked at us so blindly. I always ran back and thought things would change because I put him first instead of myself. He promised me so much, but those promises never came true. I finally ended that chapter.
I left him and found myself. I found the things I loved about myself. I put myself first for the first time in a long time. I built myself back up from where he tore me down. I finally saw all the signs and made sure I said goodbye forever on that chapter of my life.
I realized what I deserved in life. I realized I had to lose him to love myself. I needed to hate him to love myself and never go back.
Sheetal Tadiparty
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