Throughout our life, we tend to paint a mental picture of how we believe our life is going to turn out. Whether it be similar to a scene in a movie we saw or something we just created ourselves. No matter how this image came to be, we try so hard for it to become our reality and when it does not, we are crushed.
A lot of people have the idea that college is all fun and games. You are finally on your own and away from your parents who were the only people who could actually tell you no. The world is your oyster now.
You begin to make all these expectations not only for yourself but the people around you also. In the movies, they make it seem like making new friends and meeting new people is the easiest thing in the world.
For me, making friends in high school was a piece of cake. My high school friends were and still are my best friends. Coming to college though, I didn't think twice about how difficult it might be for me to make new friends. I never thought for a second that college could possibly become one of the loneliest times of my life.
The transition of going into college was a very difficult task for me. I was at the school of my dreams with a great group of friends who were going to the same college as I was, what could possibly bring me down?
It wasn't until after sorority rush week was over when I began to second guess everything I had ever thought about college. I didn't end up joining a sorority which was one of the many images I had painted for myself when thinking about college. Seeing all your friends have the time of their lives while you sit alone in your dorm room really hit me hard.
One of the most challenging things I've had to do was change the way I viewed myself and my life from here on out. I had to tell myself that making friends was going to be a little more difficult since being in a sorority was out of the picture. The expectations I held for myself in college had to be altered a bit. Once I accepted this fact, my life started to change for the better.
Here I am, sophomore year, still at the school of my dreams, making it all worth my while. I stopped feeling sorry for myself and decided to be happy again. This year, I realized that I am not that girl with a best friend or a set group of friends, no, I am that girl who has a bunch of really great friends and just goes with the flow.
I would not change anything in my life right now. All the hardships I had to go through brought me to where I am now and made me the person I am today. Just a happy go lucky girl who is trying to live her life to the fullest.