This is to the person that won't let you go after you have realized your worth.
It's funny. (That's me being sarcastic, because in reality it's not funny.) At one point, you had me, but when you had me you didn't know how to treat me. You played around, you fell back on me for comfort because you knew I wouldn't go anywhere. I had hoped that one day you'd see, that I'm a person who is down for you; down for you because I fell in love with things that made you, you- not because of any material items. I'd hoped one day you'd see that. But you always wanted more while keeping me closely to your side. I couldn't handle it. You were always looking for the next best thing. Making me feel like nothing.
You took me on a rollercoaster of emotions. "He likes me, he likes me not, he likes her..." I stayed with you because I focused on the memories and the hope you would one day change- but then I started falling in love with the memories rather than the time I was actually spending with you. I made a hard decision to slowly start falling back because if I were to rip it off like a band-aid, I'd want to constantly keep covering the wound and go back to you.
You noticed though... of course you did. I'm not sure why I thought you wouldn't. I figured you would be too preoccupied with your rotation of women- but you did notice and that was hard. You tried to pull me back in.
You always want what you can't have, right? Every chance you got, every time you were lonely, you tried to fill that void by bringing me back, voicing to me in any way you could. It would confuse the hell out of me. I'd be happy you hit me up but I'd be thinking 'leave me alone.'
In the time I felt like nothing, I had to find myself and practice self-love. I had to remind myself that just because one person can't see my worth, doesn't mean I'm worthless. There is also going to be someone out there for me, who appreciates me and only me. They won't be looking for more. But until that happens, I know my worth and I know you aren't worth it. I love myself enough to know my worth and respect my boundaries and for that I am not sorry.
You can't have your cake and eat it too.
