I always thought I had to have my life planned to a tee. Pre-school, elementary school, middle school, high school. College by 18. College graduate by 22. Then vet school for 4 years. Then a high-paying job. The epitome of a fulfilling life.
But I didn't prepare for my plan to be disrupted. My plan had been rigid up to this point, no room for bending. Then in my first year in college, I began to question if I really wanted the life I spent my whole life planning, and it freaked me out.
I spent the next couple years lost. My parents constantly questioned, "what do you want to do with your life?" to which I responded with switching my majors a total of 5 times before graduating college (all a different specialization of science). My mind was in a constant battle between which graduate degree I could get that suited my interests as well as my capabilities. Pharmacy? I am not a fan of chemistry. Physical therapy? I like studying the inner workings of the bodies, not rehabilitating injuries. Physician's assistant? I might as well be a doctor. I needed to figure out what genius scientist I wanted to become by the end of my college career...or so I thought.
The fact of the matter is I don't know what I want to be for the rest of my life. But I realize that it's perfectly okay. Now instead of worrying about what I want to be, I can just be. I can still actively go out and do what I thought a fancy career would do for me: help people live their best lives, bring the community together.
Yes, one day it will help to have a stable career, but not within a certain time limit as I originally thought. I don't have to rush which program I want to drop $100,000 on in order to get out and immediately start working for the rest of my life. I'll figure that out on my own time.
Until then, I can focus on building myself as a person.
I'm figuring out what I'm good at: talking to people, serving others, hyping people up to accomplish their goals.
I'm figuring out what I like: entertaining others, being a team player, being a leader.
I'm figuring out who I am: an ambitious, creative, compassionate person. I like to see others succeed before my very eyes, regardless if I'm practicing what I preach. I'm definitely working on myself.
Maybe it's just my generation, but we're all trying to find ourselves. The world is changing everyday, and we have to be able to cope with those changes. We also have to be able to cope with changes within ourselves. Just don't think you have to rush the rest of your life. You'll be okay, too.