It was at 6.30 AM, Sunday morning. I haven't sleep at night, just do my usual things as single 30 Y.O.

Holed up in my room, smoking while playing video games, the thing i'd do best. So, i have been a nocturnal person since like forever. my brain become active at midnight and that is why i am randomly browsing and ends up here writing this nonsense.

So, what should i write? About me?
Yeah, i already mentioned. I am 30, single, and managing (or at least try to) a business in some small town. I wont mention the place and the business not because i don;t want to, its just too long and i med 99,93 percent of you wouldn't know about those.
I was born in 1991, have two loving parents, two younger siblings, a granny, a dog, whose lived in my hometown (I lived in a separate city atm). Anyway let's safe some of the facts, its not like a CV or something and i want to write a bit about more my more abstract view on my life.

I admit, that i have accomplished little to none of my life. Some of my old friends have built their own families already. I know that every person's story is unique, but mine must be a boring one.
I have been always an introvert, melancholic and plegmatic type of a person. I dont care much about things i dont need to care about, like writing don't instead of dont, or about religion.
Speaking of religion, i'm born Christian, my family esp. my mom is a devoted one. I should be going to the church today, but the more i learned about religion, and the people, the less i care about all of them, for me religion is just divisive things, not so different than country's border or a fence in your backyard. For those whose utilize it correctly, it could be a powerful guidance to live a moral life, doing good (define good). Yep, i heard about a pastor who molests his disciples, an imam who fucks their students. Most of those religious people, like 70 percent are just hypocrite.

Hypocrisy, as much as i disliked it, I would be such person in im saying im not hypocrite myself. Also i loathe zealots who enforce their beliefs into others, like some vegans, or insurance salesmen, anyway there is not much difference between all of them. U could be a gay, a Russian, trans or whatever. I have my own view, but i usually keep it to myself.

I keep almost everything to myself, when i am in debt, or when a girl left me. I have a fairly routine, comfy life. But surely i have a lot of mental scars.

Oh speaking about girl. Do you think they deserve attention when they ignore you?
i have been simping to particular one girl i met from the net, shes from another nation..we've been talking for more than two years by now, yet i have never seen her face. I never bother because talking with her is fun, until last week when she quits talking to me. Busy? could be. Hooked up to another? perhaps. I try not to care much, but imagine talked to someone on daily basis and thinking they would quit on you. I still think about her, especially in quiet moments like this.

Apparently, nothing i can do but sighing on this one. And try moving on bit by bit.

Huh...what else to write eh? My target was about 1k words, but after babbling about this particular girl, i kinda lost word
Lost word... lost word...lost world

Lost world... the lost world... Jurassic park, ohh that film. It has new sequel very lately. An ensemble cast right?
People said it sucks, i haven't see it myself. I always watch every film, been a fan of dinos since i was 6, so lets put that on my watching list, although i dont expect much of it.

You may asked what kind of movie is my fave? Cheap comedy, cheap horrors, action movies where the good guys always win.. definitely not. Life is somewhat a tragic history, i want a movie that is kinda.. relatable to my own life.
I prefer spies, intrigue, historical, anti hero, anti war movies, same goes with series and books.

I think i'm out of brain juice.. the ember my cigarette is reaching the butt.

Later then