When I was younger, becoming an adult was my only dream. I could not wait to be an independent woman who lived life on her own terms and rules. However, having lived as an adult for almost three years, I have come to realize that adulthood is not what it is made out to be. I have gotten to the part where life is finally hitting me hard in the face — I now have to pay my own bills, do my own tax returns and the worst of all, apply for jobs and get rejection letters.
I had always thought life would be as easy as what I saw on TV shows.
If I worked hard enough, when I graduated, everything I wanted would come to me as easily as the snap of a finger. But now I'm learning that that isn't true. I'm learning that sometimes even if you work harder than you've ever worked, things will not happen. And that's fine because it just means that it isn't your time yet. Sometimes when I see my friends get accepted for the same job I applied for and got rejected, I find myself asking: "What exactly am I doing wrong?" But now I'm realizing that that is just life. Sometimes things do not happen when you really want it to, but that does not mean that it will not happen, it just means its probably not for you and that something better is coming.
When I fall into these moments of despair and anger, I keep reminding myself that things will most definitely work out and I channel those sad feelings into something positive. I try to look for what I did wrong — if I actually did something wrong — or I try to learn from others to improve myself. Sometimes life fails us when we need it the most, but that's how it is. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, you just have to keep pushing so you can reach it.
