Never before had I been so nervous in my life. I felt this terrible knot in my stomach. Just thinking about it made me want to vomit. So many thoughts were running through my head at once I thought it was going to explode!

The room seemed like it was spinning and my heart was beating so fast, so fast as if I had just ran the Boston marathon. I couldn’t focus. What were once people in front of me, seemed to look like blurs. Stupid, lifeless blurs just staring at me blankly. Like ghosts stuck in a picture frame, awaiting your next move. Like paintings in their own passage of time.

My life seemed to flash before my eyes. I had a momentary lapse of reason. I was no longer where I stood but in some far distant place well out of reality. Watching what appeared to be zombies below me, zombies just wandering about, zombies just staring at me so blankly. My lifeless body just sitting there so coldly, so coldly struck fear. As if I had seen a wave of a thousand men die instantaneously.

I heard the muffled voice once again and it somewhat brought me back into reality. The voice, so strong and powerful. The words echoing through my mind. A voice strong enough to control the pulse of my body. I had to make a decision. The decision was going to change my life forever. It was going to change me. I wasn’t even sure if I was going to be human after such an experience.

“Who am I now?” I began to wonder

My life at that point had two paths I could travel down. Whichever I chose, it was going to become my destiny. I had to carefully think about this. What would generations of my offspring think once I made the decision. Could I even still bear the family name after the path I’ve chosen. So much, so much just going through my head all at once. What shall I do?

In what seemed like ages upon ages was only a matter of mere seconds. I finally snapped back into reality. Once again, that muffled voice spoke, I became diaphoretic. I clenched my fists tightly and took a big gulp. I have made my decision.

“Soup… I will take soup over salad”

“Thank you sir” said the waiter. He shuffled away

My destiny….awaits me