I had a hard time letting you go because letting go is one of the hardest things for me. I spent so much time looking back on our friendship and wishing we could go back to the way we were. I wondered what I could have changed and what made you pull away. Even when you made me feel small, I pushed it aside. You were my friend so you obviously didn’t mean to make me feel that way.

Even though you kept hurting me, I couldn’t end the friendship. Anytime you came back, I’d welcome you with open arms no questions asked. Time was almost always your reason, but the time I’ve spent in college has made me even more aware that time is never an excuse. You make time for the people you want to make time for.

I think the reason that I couldn’t let you go was because I cling to a friendship for as long as I can with all that I have. I’ll never give up on a person no matter how many times they let me down. I’m learning to not do that to everyone anymore. I'm learning that not every friendship is worth keeping. It hurts so much to let people go but sometimes you don't have any other choice.

I’ve come to realize that what we had was not a healthy relationship, but it took me too long to come to that point. I spent too much time trying to get you to be a better friend to me when I should have just ended it. When you stopped trying, I should have stopped trying. When you’d break plans with me and not tell me, I should have cut you off there. I took too much from you. I let the way you treat me go too far. I began to think that this was all friendship was. That I was only ever meant to have these one-sided relationships where I gave everything and all the other person did was take.

You did such a good job of tricking me though making me believe you cared. You were one of those people who can make a person feel so special when you are their friend. You made me think you cared about me, but you never really did at least not like a real friend should.

While I hate that I let it go too far, I don’t hate that we were ever friends, to begin with. Because of you, I learned what real friendship is. It’s your friends checking up on you to see if you’re okay, it is friends who understand your parents' rules and don’t try to make you disobey them, and it’s girls who are willing to help me out when I need something. You never liked to do that.

Here at the end, I’d just like to say that I don’t regret our friendship. We did have some good times along the way, and you taught me so much more besides how to be a better friend. You taught me how to stick up for myself and how to be strong. I just want to say, though, that you didn’t bring me down. You might have tried too, but I won’t let you have that power over me anymore. It’s because of you that I put walls up, but it’s because of me that I’m learning to take them down.