"There comes a time when you have to stop crossing oceans for someone people who wouldn't jump puddles for you."
To my old best friend that went a separate way, I hope you're doing well. I miss our inside jokes and the sense of humor only we can understand. I miss our crazy adventures and all of our nights' laughing, but I don't miss the way I was treated. Sometimes great things come into our lives but they just aren't meant to stay. Sometimes were at different milestones in our lives and value other things, and we weren't strong enough to deal with the change.
Without you, others make me feel valued and bring out the best in me. That's what best friends are supposed to do, not bring out the worst. Losing someone I thought was a friend was nostalgic, but I had to close that chapter for myself. I spent more time on your problems than my own. Friends are supposed to push each other to do better and be there for each other, but it doesn't work if only one person holds up the end of the bargain.
Best friends don't do things to hurt each other intentionally; forgiveness can only go so far before you dig a hole deep. Negative actions were exchanged and we both had flaws. Distance came between us and we parted ways. I don't hate you by any means. Ending our friendship may have seemed like I didn't care, but I just wanted to do what was best.
I am glad I had a friend like you to do crazy stuff with and make so many memories. Sometimes we have to grow apart to make personal growth. I hope one day we can be friends again, but never in the same way. I miss doing things that would always be "our things." I miss someone knowing everything about me so I don't have to re-explain it. You were my phone call when I was in a sticky situation or just need someone to cheer me up. I always admired that you made your flaws your greatest strength. You were strong-headed and always stuck up for me, but sometimes you would put that against me. I wish we could have had more good in our friendship to outweigh the bad.
The truth is, I didn't need a friend who made me feel like I was not important. Having a fun-friendship does not mean it is a good-friendship. I needed positivity and was tired of getting brought down all of the time. You may or may not be reading this, but if you are, maybe one day we can be friends without the inevitable downward spiral. I will always consider you a friend, and I hope one day we can put aside our differences. By chance you are reading this, let's not turn into strangers?
